Friday, February 5, 2010

An Old Girlfriend

I met my old girlfreind for breakfast the other day. It was kind of a big deal. She is the only woman I have ever been in love with. Truly. But, I'll tell you, I learned a long time ago that being in love sucks.

I'm not in love with her anymore and meeting her did not bring back any of those old painful feelings cause that is what being in love is -- it fucking hurts.

No, it was good to see her and also to see she has a happy family and she is doing well.

I can could go on awhile about love. Someday I might go into more detail. Lets just say I love my wife and I have loved other women in the past, but I was in love only once. Being in love with someone is no fun for anybody.

I should probably qualify this a bit. I have fallen in love again. I am in love with my son. I cannot imagine how I could go on with my life without him. My own death would be easier to bear. That is what being in love is and placing that kind of thing on another person is not fair. The other person is not responsible for your being in love with them. My son did not ask that I fall in love with him, but in his case it can't be helped.

Our partners, lovers and spouses though, those people we should love and cherish, but never fall in love with. We need to realize that keeping these sustaining these relationships require work and is not something owed or bequeathed to us by some power known as love. Loving someone requires responsibility, being in love with someone is an affliction you best find a cure for.

Truthfully, when I met my old girlfriend I did feel love for her and a responsibility to let her know I cherished our time togerther a long time ago. My affliction for falling in love, though, was cured a long time ago.

1 comment:

Richard Loggins said...

I love my dog Bob, but I haven't fallen in love with him, you know what I mean?

I've fallen for a girl or two in my day, but that was a long time ago when the hormones were raging. Not that hormones can do anything, mind you, but they're a good excuse.